Last night, while re-organizing the office I paused to read through Emily's Seizure Journal. Basically it consists of every blog entry I have ever written about her seizures (form the first one to the last known one, updates on every visit with her neurologist, all of her medicines and dosages, copies of her neuro-psych report, and any other related materials. I haven't read or updated it in MONTHS which is a good thing I suppose because it means that there is nothing to report.
I read the very first entry I ever wrote about the whole situation. It was still as hard to read as it has ever been(you can read it here if you want).
Anyway, the question is how well do you do in an emergency? Do you freeze? Do you know exactly what to do? Are you the picture of calm and reasonable? Do you freak out? Or are you like me who freaks out, but in a methodical, robotic kind of way? Logic takes over(I know what I need to do and how I need to do it) but my stomach goes in to flip flops and my voice gets all shrill and loud.